Monday, 15 December, 1828

When we experience sensations of the description related yesterday, they should be permanent, durable, and almost unchangeable. But, if after enjoyments, we feel discontented when dwelling over the occurrences of the past, we may be sure all is not right. Some corroding thought will arise and dampen our enjoyment. And thus it is with me. I am not prepared in a pecuniary way to adopt a course of life on which I in one way hope to enter. It is this which creates my disquietude and throws a shade deep over every reflection.