Thursday, 30 April, 1829

I have today, for the first time since I was hurt, rode on horseback. Visited several patients. Found several of them evidently, for the want of attendance, worse. This gives much uneasiness because I should not have went to the Pilot on the 25th inst. many people who envy me the pleasure of going to the Pilot with these young ladies now rejoice at the misfortune that befell me at the time. I envy not the feelings of such minds or the contracted pleasure they can enjoy. They are all self.