Saturday, 24 April, 1830

Some clouds darken the atmosphere and some gloomy spots entangle my mind. I see that my ideas of goodness, of propriety, are so different from those of the community that immediately surrounds me that day is not far distant when we cannot agree. Because when they denounce my notions, I cannot remain silent. I must and shall take my own part when necessary, be the consequences as they may. And then will in a few years be a change in the political notions of some with whom I have been intimate. They are now democrats. But there is too much Aristocracy mingled in their notions to continue to support the rights of the people. And here will be cause of irritation, for I shall defend pure democracy at the risk of life.