Friday, 28 August, 1829
I find that I cannot force from the mind those unpleasant ideas caused by the recent occurrences, because I find that my declarations are not fully credited, but the last insinuation tending to criminate is taken as true and acted on accordingly. Such a situation cannot be pleasant. I am now of the opinion that this is one of the many methods resorted to by the female to assume that control over the male, so much desired by the most of wives. I really hope that the experience of a few more months may prove this notion incorrect.